I constantly find
myself in a 'dilemma' in many parts of my life...
Recently it is
obvious at work – I feel I just want to give up! This is one side of me at the
moment...
Despite all the
patience, all the effort, all the care, all the guidance – I just don’t
understand the simple mistakes! All the warnings, all the checks, all the
trainings seems like not working at all! Howcome? Then I think – when I was at
their position – when I was an agent – if only I had a Manager who would guide
me... Well I had a few to be honest that really made a difference and of course
I do not see myself from a mirror but their performance is the mirror of my
management and I feel I am failing...
Then there is the
other side of things – I see how my team works from the heart, they are good bunch
of girls and boys who have dreams – they are young! They are at the very begining of
this road which is a rather steep to reach the top! Should I be more
understanding, should I be more supportive...
Either case – I tend
to blame myself!
I could not
recognize myself at work today – constantly complaining, asking, questioning...
As I said – I feel I am failing!!
I am rather
ambitious at work – yes - I do not see myself at the mirror – but I hope
this ambition is not in a harmful way to others... I am dedicated to success /
my business is based on targets. So I really work hard to explain the targets
because I think if I manage to explain why – we will manage to achieve the
targets... Well currently we are failing!!
Is the above my
situation? Am I used, abused, naive and have I lost my voice???
Or is it the mood
that I was talking about in my post ‘excuses’ that makes me feel this way???
I am attending a
leadership training next week – hope this will my mirror! I love my team, I
love my job! It is soooo challenging to have to express your thoughts using a
second language but not your mother tongue – How I wish I knew Georgian or if
only my staff knew Turkish...
I hope Bob Marley
is right – I hope every little thing will be alright... ( with a salute to Lasha! )
Best of luck with your training course, dear. Some people are made to lead and some are made to follow...from what I remember and strongly believe in, I would say that you belong to the former. Lead on! :-)
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